Hey, have you read my poem in my previous post? If not, make your way there and read it! Before I start, I just want to let you all know that the poem is not about me or any particular person I know. I’ve happened to be a storyteller and that is what I do, I write stories as an enjoyment – and it has been concluded to be one of the things I love to do in life. All praises to the Lord who gave me this idea to write this poem for you all. I’ve decided to do a poem regarding trauma to express it in the lens of individuals who suffer(ed) from traumatic experiences. And like most people, we all suffer from a harrowing experience that had an impact in our lives. Certain kind of trauma can be minor and some severe; It’s the kind of life experience that is commonly known to affect parts of our developmental like personality as well as the ability to process it at an emotional state. When writing this poem about trauma, it brought me to a particular line in the lyric of Lauryn Hill’s “Ready or Not” a song by Fugees:
“Ready or not, here I come, you can’t hide, gonna find you and take it slowly.”
Now, we all know what Lauren was talking about in this song, and at this point, you might be thinking that it doesn’t relate to my poem regarding trauma. Well, figuratively speaking, I’ve embedded Lauryn’s single line to paint the picture involving trauma (peep the title of my poem). Yes! For me, it appeared collectively as some form of Hide and Seek. Let’s read the fine line again: [Ready or not, here I come, you can’t hide, gonna find you and take it slowly]. Here, I visualize it as the therapist playing along with the client’s dissociation of their memory of that event/experience in the game of “Hide and Seek”. So, with the therapeutic relationship (Client and therapist), the therapist would interpersonal maneuver their way in whatever interventions or technique they use to address and find the underlying issues. Taking the process slowly, one step at a time, the therapist meets the client halfway and making it an effort to bring such events from the unconscious into the conscious awareness. Now in this case, the unknown person in this poem won’t have the courage to speak upon it – causing the inability to do it independently. And because those memories are purposely hidden by the client, interdependently, it is the therapist job to seek it with the participation of the client. Oh, and by the way, I purposely left out the gender of the character in this poem as well as age and color. I leave it up to you to pick the preference.
Thinking back on how I used to handle my issues so poorly in dealing with trauma, I can recall of always hiding it through overeating and working excessively. And for some reasons, it always finds me. Every corners I’d turn to, I am reminded of those unwanted experiences. It was not until later in my life, that the right way to handle my issues was through a confrontation – speaking about it with God. The Lord definitely helped me and connected me to the right sources in terms of healing emotionally and mentally from it. Though the memory is still there, with God by my side, I am at ease to know that I can manage it to the point where it doesn’t affect my everyday lifestyle. The battle is the Lords, so, whatever it is that’s bothering His children, He will come for those unwanted memories and send a Comforter, the Holy Spirit.
“And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever.” John 14:16, NKJV
But first, we must seek Him through prayer and supplication – as it shall be given. He wants what causing us those pain and is longing to heal us. It is not our job to carry out the burdens and let it dictate our life.
“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30, NKJV
This is where He intercedes on our behalf in whatever the problem may be. As a Christian, I am consistently and eagerly learning to always depend on Him for guidance, strength and much more in this beauty of life. The Lord provided hope for me. I was overwhelmed from hiding those thoughts that was bothering me and it only made it worse. Calling upon His name and seeking Him to help through it all was the finishing touch of me overcoming it. Right there, I gave my problems to God in exchange to peace.
“Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” John 14:27, NKJV
Healing takes time and of course, it’s different for all of us based on our circumstances. Nonetheless, it is possible to be healed through God (ultimately) and by family, real friends, loved ones and helping professionals.
Dahana St Jean